Model Monday *64

yeah, really beautiful. specially i liked his haircut. but i ask myself in such occasions what can i do then? can i possess the boy? what happens to me after my feelings get involved with his beauty? is it something better than regretting not being with him or being the closest one in the world to him or being able to look at him or have some communication with him all the time? what’s beyond sighing how it would be if i could make all of these come true? just think a bit about it! what’s beyond a boy’s beauty? doesn’t this just collapse and spoil us? what is the thing we could earn during this whole time being gays or interested in young boys? i don’t believe that boys are not beautiful. i don’t believe that this beauty is ignorable. but until when? with what value? we’re reducing ourselves without getting anything and without reaching anywhere. they know our feelings about them? do they pay attention or take care of it? is this a practical way? do they pay the price of our loves? and what do we think to be the value of our love? what do we expect them do in response to our praise? ever asked yourselves this question? when this balance never occurs isn’t it better not to torture ourselves by stimulating our feelings?
this is my prescription, at least for myself:
never see a pic of a beautiful boy and never even be looking for it!